And heeeeeeeeere's MORNING SICKNESS

So this morning it seemed like an alien had taken over my body overnight. My body looked different in the bathroom mirror. I just felt strange in a way I can't really describe. And then, when I went into the kitchen to prepare breakfast, my stomach just turned over. The alien in my belly said there was no way I was eating anything. Still, baby needs to eat. So I poured myself a little bowl of cereal, cut up an apple, and got out a yogurt. Only after taking several deep breaths was I able to eat half the apple, about 4 bites of the cereal, and all of the yogurt. I also took my prenatal vitamins, a calcium supplement, and a little bit of water. I had to get completely out of the kitchen in order for the feeling to subside. And it has been back, every time I am about to eat anything.

This is terrifying for me in some ways because I HATE throwing up. I have only thrown up a few times in my life, and I hated it. One time, about 3 years ago, I threw up in public, in the hallway of the English building at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln. It was so humiliating. So far, I consider it a victory that I have not yet thrown up. But this is only really the first day of the battle. From what I hear, throwing up while pregnant is not like throwing up after eating bad Chinese food: you don't feel better after you've emptied the contents of your stomach.

On the other hand, morning sickness is a good sign. It means everything is progressing normally. So, I will take deep breaths, try to continue to eat, and rejoice that it is all going the way it is supposed to.